Day 6

I feel like I have went off the deep end and have cheated so bad. I haven't! Everything I have ate today has been vegan but years and years of dieting and feelings of the immense guilt that goes with it rears it ugly head over and over again. I ate a cookie and a cupcake both V but they tasted so good that I had feelings of guilt. I think that a lot of what I are today was just rich tasting so in my diet abused mind it had to be bad. We ran to whole foods for a few things that I needed to stock up on and ordered the veggie vegan pizza before we started shopping. It was good but too much feese(fake cheese). I think next time we will order it with just half the cheese. Had my version of blt for breakfast. In a way so glad whole foods is a little piece away because they make the best food. Peanut butter cookie was the best I have ever had, anytime and the cupcake I couldn't even really finish it was so rich. We went by the deli counter and they had vegan dishes. Stacie they did not have the sesame tofu, I asked. But we got a little of the General Tso's chicken, it was soooo good. I cut a piece off and it looked like chicken. I was greatly impressed and will ask next time what fake chicken they used, I need to know!!! Kids really would not know the difference if you did not tell them.
When I stepped on scales this morning I had officially lost 4 lbs since Monday, yeah!! See in my mind just now I thought "well that is till I ate the cupcake and cookie". I just need to tell that voice to shut the heck up, huh? Except I didn't say heck, hehe. The funny part was I wasn't even really craving sugar. I think it was that I hadn't eaten enough before going in store and just the abundance of vegan foods all ready made and ready to eat just was too much for me. One day I will learn my lessons, hopefully!!