Very Bad Days

Ok, true confessions time. I have had a rough time this week in that I can call myself a vegetarian this week because I have fallen off the vegan wagon bad. I got so obsessed with cheese it was totally affecting every part of my life. I didn't want to cook because I didn't want to eat. If it wasn't cheese then I really didn't care what I ate because it was just for the sake of eating. It really was the worst craving I have ever had and I resisted for a few days then decided that if my body wanted something that much then maybe I should just have some. Maybe it needed it. We went out to eat and I had REAL cheese and it was good and it didn't satisfy me like last time. I still had cravings and still obsessed. I decided a little break was in order and have been having dairy and eggs this weekend. Have NOT had any cravings for meat at all, have no desire to have any and for that I am thankful. Monday will start afresh and try to have better coping skills. Not sure what to do when those cravings start because nothing I tried to substitute would take the cravings away. Maybe I need the dairy, only time will tell. I'm gonna do some research. I don't want to stop all the benefits I have seen so taking it a day at a time.